The Closing of a Chapter

Hello my non-existent readers, its been a while hasn't it? Well there may or may not be a very good, rather not-enjoyable explanation for my apparent absence. A lot has happened since we left and I guess I should let you know what's going on. First I'd like to say that I'm continuing this blog but it may have a slightly different approach than before.

I'll just get it out now. I am no longer in UMKC's medical program. There, it's out. I voluntarily withdrew from the program after this summer due to some events over that semester and over the course of my time in the medical school. I won't go into too great of detail about it but my grandmother (from here on out in my blog I'll call her my Te'te... which is an Arabic word for grandmother) passed away this summer. It tore out a hole in me and put me into an emotional tailspin that I did not think possible. I pretty much disregarded any schoolwork as important and grieved the loss of a very precious person in my life. My grades suffered from this and, though I recovered and continued to perform well in class, the damage was already done and I was put up for separation and was scheduled to meet before the Council to plead my case. I went through this before and did not wish to go through it again so after my meeting I withdrew from the program. This decision did not come lightly however. There was a great deal of soul searching and reflective contemplation within myself and between me and my family. While I did have to give up on the 6-year medical school... I am NOT giving up on my life goal of becoming a physician. I'm pre-med, working on getting into medical school somewhere, and continuing through to my M.D.

Now on to my normal self again. It's been quite a while since this decision and I've stuck with it. The only negatives I have found is that it is extremely hard and embarrassing to tell my friends (both in and out of the med school) that I'm no longer in the program. Friends, family, or just people in general that know me. I'm slightly ashamed of it and think that people have held me to a standard that was too high for me to achieve... regardless of if that's actually true or not. But this too will pass in time. This semester has been going well so far, but it's had a fair share of ups as well as downs and we're only halfway through. But it will turn out alright and as it should in the end.

I look forward to continuing this blog, but I'll be writing a blog of just my thoughts and ramblings now, and the occasional story of life as I see fit to post it. I wish you a good day and now I must get back to studying physics... it's kicking my butt!

"Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish." - John Quincy Adams